HIDE

Hide…
I need to hide away.
I want help…
I need help,
But I just can't do it.
It would change too much…
It would ruin my family's life…
But the fear…
It plagues me.
Everyday it's there…
Whenever I see it,
The memories come back.
I hide behind the mask I constructed years ago,
But I fear for my safety…
For my mom and my sister's.

It has corrupted me.
It has ruined my mind.
I have gone through too much to be subjected to this…
The help is right there…
All I need to do is reach out…
But I can't…
The risk is too much.
So I'll hide away…
It's all I can do…